Abandoned, alone, what do I do? My heart is beating so fast, what do I do? It has been so long since she left. I need help but no one is here and I don’t know what to do. She is crying and won’t stop and I am scared that somethings really wrong. She has needed a new diaper for so long and I don’t have a new one. I tried to clean it but it isn’t helping. She has red streaks going down her legs and her tears just wont stop coming. God what do I do? Something calms my heart for just a second, something brings peace.
“Sis you stay here, I will be back soon. I am gonna go call dad. He will come and he will know what to do. Please don’t cry no more. I love you! Just play with your baby. I will be back.” As I kiss her head goodbye I feel how hot she is. Fear jumps forward into my throat again and my heart beats faster. I feel like I might be sick.
I turn and leave before I can change my mind. It scares me to leave her alone but I have to call dad! There is that peace again. I am her big brother and it is my job to take care of her. Where is mom? Why isn’t she back yet? I hate when she leaves us like this!
It is a warm sunny day outside and I am scared as I walk up the alleyway looking for houses that might let me use their phone. It is a scary neighborhood and we don’t belong here. Mom left us at a friends house but they haven’t been home for a couple days. I just start asking people if they got a phone and it takes a while before someone lets me in to use their phone. As I walk into their home my heart jumps into my chest again. What if they are really bad people?! That peace fills me again and I wonder if it is God. I call my dad as fast as I can because I know he will help and I am right. He is on his way.
I run all the way back to where my sister is and go inside and scoop her up. She is still crying and must have been so scared but seeing me seems to make it all better. I hold her tight and realize how bad she smells, nausea washes over me. I must have not noticed before because we were together in this small home for so long, or maybe I just blocked it out but the smell is putrid. I notice now though and it makes me want to be sick.
This is not the first time I have been abandoned, we have been abandoned. It has happened before, many times. My mom works a lot and likes to party a lot too so sometimes she leaves us with different people. Some people are ok, others are scary. This time the people just disappeared. Maybe they were with mom. I wish she would come back.
I sit down with my sister and just wait for my dad. Peace… I can tell God is with me, comforting me. God loves me even when those that are supposed to love me forget. Because of Him, I can cuddle up with my sister and love her and forget the reasons I was afraid. Once I was abandoned, but now… I am now saved. Peace…
This story is based on a true story that was told through the eyes of a frightened little boy that grew up too fast. This kind of thing happens all to often. I hope this inspires you to see and do two things. First, see the pain in children’s eyes… it’s there. Help them. Don’t ignore it. Second, if that kind of pain lingers in your heart from long ago like it does mine, remember, there is one who will never abandon you and He will always love you. Let Him love you the way you should have been.
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